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When Jill Martin was diagnosed with signifier 2 bosom cancer, she expected the months of chemotherapy treatments, the six surgeries, adjacent the endless hours of acold capping successful an effort to sphere immoderate of her hair. 

But the Today contributor hadn't anticipated that wrestling with suicidal ideations would beryllium a portion of her cancer journey. 

Prescribed 2 medications meant to trim her hazard of cancer recurrence, she was told imaginable broadside effects would see associated symptom and fatigue.

Instead, "the dosage was not close for maine and it caused maine to person suicidal thoughts," the 48-year-old told E! News successful an exclusive interview. Feeling hopeless and arsenic if beingness wasn't worthy living, "I had the wherewithal to beryllium capable to telephone my doctors and say, 'Something's not right,'" she continued, revealing she contacted her oncologist Dr. Eric Winer aft Googling a circumstantial termination method and discovering the 988 termination situation line. "But not everybody has the spot similar that."

Winer, manager of the Yale Cancer Center adjusted her dosage, leaving her feeling much similar herself and determined to assistance others. 

Testing affirmative for the BRCA gene, "They asked maine to spell successful for the preventative country and they found assertive cancer," Martin revealed. "Let maine archer you something, I americium the luckiest idiosyncratic successful the world. I've ever considered myself that. But had I not gotten that test, I don't cognize if I would've been present with you. It would person dispersed and apt been incurable." 

So, yes, she pushes hard for others to cognize their household history. 

"You request to cognize if you acceptable into the buckets of precocious risk," she stressed. "And if you do, you request to inquire your doc astir familial testing. I cognize radical are scared. They don't privation to know. Trust me, the alternate is earth-shattering and life-altering." 

For the entrepreneur that looks similar doing everything she tin to assistance others. 

Channeling her emotions into her work, she lauched her By Jill Martin enactment of loungewear, including pink-hued sherpa loungers featuring the logos of the NBA and WNBA. 

Host of Steals and Deals and bosom crab subsister Jill Martin created an exclusive enactment of WNBA and NBA cogwheel with Fanatics, including this ultra cozy, hooded jacket successful a blush pinkish hue with a pinked retired WNBA logo.

All proceeds volition beryllium donated to the Basser Center for BRCA.

Take her newfound confidence. 

With everything her assemblage has gone through, "I accidental I'm a disco ball—a cardinal breached parts someway beautifully enactment backmost together," said Martin. "And I look astatine shots of maine successful bathing suits and successful dresses, and I retrieve being truthful self-critical. We're each hard connected ourselves."

Now, though, "I'm truthful proud, this body," she continued. "Do you cognize however overmuch enactment it took for maine to get to this point? I deliberation you request to look successful the reflector and beryllium your ain champion person and ticker what you accidental to yourself."

And Martin has go a pro at pumping herself up. 

"Every time is simply a caller accidental for a caller beginning, and I truly judge that," she insisted. "I don't instrumentality thing for granted."

As for the caller parts of herself, "It's good that it's earlier and after," she added. "You're allowed to commencement a caller section immoderate time you want. So if you're warring and you've been down successful the dumps, which I understand, you tin commencement today. Every time is simply a caller day. Every 2nd is simply a caller second."

—Reporting by Nikaline McCarley